I know it has been a while...I am so sorry. Lots of fun things have been happening! Byron and I are doing better than ever, loving life to the fullest :)
Gal. 6:9 "For we must not get tired of doing good, for we will reap at the proper time if we don't give up".
Let me go back to after our failed "natural" cycle. We decided to get a 2nd opinion to our "you will never have children of your own" news. I made an appointment in Houston. It was a disaster from the beginning. Our first visit came after a long 5 hour adventure in the waiting room. For those of you who know us, you realize that neither one of us have tolerance for stuff like this. I realize the doctor was busy and am grateful that he was helping others but REALLY???? When we finally got back there it was another hour or so before we saw him.
They did blood work and laid out a plan for running all sorts of tests but first I had to take a pregnancy test. This was so comical for us but we did what we were told. The next day, the nurse called back and said, "you are pregnant". After several minutes of me confirming that she knew who she was talking to, I was still in total disbelief. All I could do was laugh because after years of procedures and trying things that are unheard of, we manage to do this all on our own. I realize this happens to lots of couples and is not that rare but there was no way it could happen to us.
This news meant another trip to Houston to confirm my levels were increasing. I remember the drive over there, I was so excited yet trying to tell myself not to be too hopeful. Secretly I was still convinced that this nurse called the wrong person. When I got to Houston, there were lots of blood tests and ultrasounds. Unfortunately, there was no signs of pregnancy on the ultrasound. We went through months(from Aug to Jan) of trips to Houston, lab work, ultrasounds, etc. The conclusion was a tubal pregnancy that dissolved itself. I know...whew what else right?
While we were disappointed, we were also very blessed to have God controlling the situation. A tubal pregnancy can be life threatening. I am grateful that although it took months, lots of trips, and emotions out the wazoo, it ended safe and soundly. On a side note, the funniest thing to me was trying to argue not being pregnant with my local doctor when I got a sinus infection. Have you ever tried to tell a doctor, nurse practitioner, lab technician, and a gazillion nurses that you aren't pregnant when clearly your urine and blood tell them different? Hilarious :)
What we learned through this was to rest in God's strength. This may sound cold or harsh but this life lesson was a means to an end for me to truly rely on God's will for us. Totally surrendering to that is the hardest thing I've ever done. I struggle daily to take my worries, fears, controlling nature, and selfish behaviors captive so I can do what I am put on the earth to do...honor and obey our awesome Lord. Through this, Byron realized that there was unfinished business in his life. He is like so many others of us...walked the isle as a small child but didn't fully understand or commit. After losing a dear friend that had invested so much love, time, and guidance into his life, Byron realized that he needed to be saved. He is so private and did this without anyone knowing. It wasn't too long after this experience that he realized God was convicting him to get his Baptism on the right side of his salvation.
It is so mind boggling when I stop and look at how much our lives have changed. Our priorities are on track to where they should be and it has made such a difference. I know some people don't understand and may not agree with all we do but we strive daily to focus on God and his desires and direction. My prayer is this shows and helps others to see where they should be going with their lives. Please email me if there is anything I can pray with you about. I would be honored.
We are human and do mess up so please note...we are not on a pedestal! But I do I know God wants to use our stories to impact the world. We are ready and open for the challenge!
I pray that this blog is blessing you as much as it is me.
Please keep us in your prayers...we are trying to discover God's will for the next steps in our lives. I will share as soon as it is made clear to us :)
Love,
Jennifer
